Saturday, December 19, 2009
7 more hours to my flight.
6 people in NP team.
5 Assignments not done.....
4 times more Hiong training (probably)
3 hours to sleep.
2 weeks away from SG.
1 min before i turn in!
Maybe I'll blog in China.
Maybe I'll be too tired to.
Definitely doing my assignments over there.
Definitely going to enjoy my time there.
Will my leg be all set for training?
I wouldn't know.
And I hope so.
Should I throw in the white towel?
12:59 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
CT's over....
But that means something.
The trip to China is near.
Its about time i pack my luggage.
But am i ready for it?
Ankle's ready. But the other injury....
The crack, really really bad.
I can't do almost everything.
Can't do Taiji, Can't hua Taolu...
Do short weapon 基本功, end up hand pain.
The pain in my hand appeared not long ago.
To be more vivid, it happened on Sunday training.
Was doing Xuan Feng, I spinned and felt the pain at my elbow.
When I was 5-6 years old, my arm got fractured.
That should be the cause of the pain....
I have injuries almost everywhere, leg and arm mainly.
Such hindrance, how much longer can i take it?
....
I'm paranoid once again, the sign is pretty obvious.
I'm already 17.
I'm a little old for Wushu, always end up getting injured.
That's why i agreed to switch to Taiji.
At the rate my Taiji is going, how can I achieve the targets i set for next year?
Stop.
2:22 AM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Maths has done it again.
It has never failed me since sec 3.
Have to really thank my Aunt,
for the time spent teaching me and sharpening my maths when i was in sec 3 & 4.
The only subject i managed to top the class once was Maths.
I was really really happy, cause i even managed to win the foreigners!
Although I am on my own after Sec 4,
I won't forget that she was the one that made my maths to what it is today.
Thanks a lot.
I think I'm screwed for AC tml.
It was the only Module i didn't pay attention in class.
Ever since the first AC lecture was conducted, I lost my focus and did my stuff every single lecture.
AC is a interesting module, but the way the lecturer teach, is shit.
Not much effort is put into teaching the class. Why?
Cause all he merely did was going through the PDF files in MEL.
Not a very good way to teach.
Cause we did nth, but sit there and listen,
There was no way we can write notes cause everything is on PDF file,
Writing on Paper would be pretty messy,
and the lecture notes didn't have any solutions for questions...
The book is F***ing thick and hell most of the stuff is irrelevant.
I should be revising for AC.....
Just one more day...
12:14 AM
Monday, December 14, 2009
One paper down!
And results? Not satisfactory.
I shouldn't have left earlier....
Even at the last 15 mins, one can spot mistakes....
Sigh.
And so I went to the doctor to see my leg.
And I think its should be okay by Saturday.
On Wednesday? I'm not sure....
But my spectacles has a chance that it will not be ready by Saturday...
After the treatment, I felt that my mind became tranquil.
All the worries about the previous paper, this and that, all gone...
Although i still recall every single thing, but its not the same.
As if besides going through physical treatment, my mind did one too haha.
I Should try it out someday....
Before the paper, i remembered about the E tutorial that was due yesterday.
Sigh, there goes another 2 %....
Maybe.
Maybe that's the difference between a competitive and a non-competitive class.
And the difference between Brothers and Friends (no offense), last Sem was really close and we reminded each other about this and that.
This Sem? sigh.
Feeling more desolate than before....
11:36 PM
My leg doesn't seem ready.
Although I went to treat my ankle, there seems to be something amiss.
There is another yet not treated portion....
The one where the crack came from. Hmmm...
Somehow, when i twist my foot to the left, there is a pain.
The next moment it isn't there. weird.
Should i go for another check, or let it pass?
Should i settle it, or should i continue my mugging?
Damn that pair of spectacles. Why must it spoil at this crucial moment? Why didn't it break apart earlier? Thank goodness i've got extra daily lens.... and Thank goodness it didn't break later than yesterday...Muse shall guide me through the papers.
Songs that contain my confidence shall be unleashed once again...
The 7 songs.... + 6 more for fun =X
12:11 AM
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Ever got trapped in your room, and you couldn't get out?
I did. The door slammed shut and the door wouldn't budge.
The door knob wouldn't turn.
The wind that blew strongly released my door from the magnet and boom!
That's how i woke up today.
My first instinct was to open the door.
If the door isn't open, no wind can go through, so no breeze while i sleep.
I couldn't open the door, for a moment i thought, Wtf?
With a closer analysis, I found the problem.
It was the hanger with my towel that jammed the door.
Next thing comes in my mind, something to cut the hanger, to release that pressure.
Penknife came in my mind first, after i looked around the room.
So i thought to give it a try, wouldn't work.
Then i remembered my toolbox in my room.
Took the Wire Cutter and cut.
Still, it's jammed.
On the other side of the door, my sis came to open the door.
It was because it didn't open after i turned the knob a few times.
She realised it's jammed. Then my mum came to speculate the commotion.
I told them to cut the hanger so that the door can open. They did.
And the door opened. They used an ordinary pair of scissor.
Which of course did the job but in a harder way.
If i were alone at home, I probably get stuck till someone gets home.
I did study, but not all the time.
Distractions.
Finally giving up, cause i totally lost concentration.
So i head to bed. For the rest of the day, i couldn't do any productive study.
....
One day to cover all the modules.
Two days till the paper start.
Three days till the middle of everything.
Four days to a stress free mind.
Whatever, when was i even stressed in the first place.
What is most important now is to see if i am able to take on training.
And its four days later....
1:42 AM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Stuck in a Dilemma again.
Now that my leg is 80% ok, i want to go for training.
There is still a slight pain,
But i think it will subside by tml.
How am i going to see if i am fit for China Training?
Saturday night will be a great chance, but CT isn't over!
I just touched a book for a few hours, and struggle to pull over.
That's one module. I have 3 examinable modules.
Sigh.
Should i mug for the whole of Saturday OR
Should i go for training and waste my evening?
I do have Sunday, but i fear its not enough.
I think i will spend the night thinki....
Nice. Just got a blackout. Power trip.
Problem solved for the time being....
I'm glad i went into EE.
At least i know what has gone wrong and how to solve it.
And really, experiences does help a lot.
Sino power trip taught me sth, and so did this.
I've got quite a knowledge before going into EE,
all thanks to my dad, and i think i know why i am in that course.
Probably cause my dad is in that specialization,
and taught me one or two things that arouse my curiosity over certain stuff.
I watched him repair a lot of things....
If not, really, i will be wandering aimlessly in life.
I just remembered sth, sth lost in my memory.
In the past i used to meddle with things, like the Karaoke, amplifier set.
And click and click buttons that i didn't know...
I possess some of these knowledge through testing and trying...
Now, my dad wants me to fix this and that. I despise that.
Cause often he calls me i am doing my work or playing my game.
I now get his intentions clearer than before.
Experience... Without it, i bet i wouldn't learn anything.
Without it, i am clueless in everything, so best is to try...
My Time Is Running Out.....
1:42 AM